Dear Bay, 

You’ll never see this well at least I hope you don’t, well because this is my page where I can write what I feel. I had a dream last night that we broke up and i cried in the dream but I also watched the aftermath of the both of us, we both seemed lost especially me, I had no idea how to act or to feel. In the dream I was alone and lost. I kept looking for you again and the great thing was, you were looking for me too. We didnt know how to function without each other, which leads me to my next point: how did I manage without you with me? I dont know and I hope I dont have to find out anytime soon or maybe at all.

Now to the bright side of things, I have never fallen so hard for someone in my entire life, even in the movies I have never watched me love someone so much with so much passion. In the movies now it seems so fake to us. We are real. We are tangible. When I fell for you was when I realized that I didnt care about your flaws and you didnt care about mine, you think I am beautiful and I dont even think that about myself, I wish it were you who had stolen my first kiss, but some things I guess we just cant change. Anyway you at this point are my happiness and my sanity. I am so scared though, for when you go away, to GHP, I am so proud of you for making it, you would not believe how proud of you I am, I just wish it werent for so long or so far away, I guess Will and I will bear through it together, All i know at this point is that i need you. You used to be something i just wanted and now youre somehthing i need. Before you leave I will hang out with you nothing will stop me (I hope) they sat nothing can break true love (I Hope that’s true too) We can make it, I know it (knock on wood just in case). Rashaad I have fallen in love with you and I hope you can say the same about me, I hope we really do have a future together. Some people have to search for years to find someone to love, I just had to search for you. Maybe this is just the first love kinda thing, but that still means that you have a special place in my heart. I hope youre my only love but god only knows, when you mentioned that suicide thing to me i literally almost broke down into tears, please dont leave me like that ever I am not strong enough to let you go. I love you and everything about you. from the top of your head to the tip your toes and everything in between;) Well I guess that’s enough gushy for one day, any way goodnight Bay I love you <3 even though you wont see/read this I think you know it exists in your heart :) 

Your mine and only mine from now on until forever <3

-Call Meh Rey [M<3R]  Emergingcone5 [R<3M]

5/29/12